A MONTH OF SORROW

i just wanted to share this to my readers... <if they really ever existed>

i cant help but crying my eyes out...as I hear the news from my dad... saying that grandma has passed away... and earlier this evening, i got a call, again from my dad.. saying that, my uncle just passed away... i was like... Dear God.. please dont take anymore of my loved ones... a week more till i reached home.. please God.. ;-(

u have no idea how devastating it is to feel helpless... while all of your family members grieving of the deaths of our only grandma, im here.... clueless of whats happening,. still taking everythng for granted.. i could only wish for their happiness.. a week! one more week... now that He took my grandma..He again took my uncle.. which i hardly see during the holidays.. he's busy working and taking care of his paralyzed wife... we can hardly have a quality time as a family..


this is the picture of my grandma's grave.. still waiting for this saturday's 4.00 pm flight to Bintulu... so that i can finally step my feet to 'see' her..

grandma's last moments with family..




after my grandma died, my mom regretfully said "kite x raya sgt tahun ni.. biase2 je, k" i was like.. "ok mom" .... earlier today, she called, saying that she was currently at the hospital visiting my late uncle.. and her flight back home was supposedly at 5pm this evening... precisely at 5.45, my dad once again called, saying that mom's flight was cancelled.. uncle has passed away..


this is the picture of my late uncle.. right after his surgery.. he was found unconscious in his home before he was flew to Kuching Hospital via helicopter last week.
they said that, they found a blood clot in his brain and they have to take it out.. the surgery was a success i guess. however, my mom said that he couldnt recognized them whatsoever.. he has lost his memories.. for good...

i tried to put myself together.. well, nobody can put it together anyway.. not like this.. u'll just cry eventually. and thats what happened... and im in the middle of my exam week.. Linguistic and Literature to be exact... it breaks my heart when i think of it...

i can only pray for their well being at home, and myself of course,.... i have to pass all of my subjects.. so i can finally b a teacher.. its even harder tho for me.. my unfortunate name of being infamous has made it tougher to deal with. people bringing you down every second,.. scheming of a way to put u on the ground.. all i can say to myself is that, as they're trying so hard to bring me down only brings me to a conclusion that im already on top of them..

why bother myself thinking of these irrevocably ungrateful people.. i have other friends that appreciate me for who i am.. i have a family that feeds me.. u didnt raise me! my mom did! thanx mom.. i love u and i love ayah as well..


well...now.. i can only do my best for my exams.. and have a safe flight home this saturday.... i seriously need to be home with my loved ones...


my favorite person in the whole world.. my grandpa.. visiting grandma's grave.. :(
only God knows how he felt inside..

cant wait to meet these people!!!!!


this is my hero.. and i love him dearly.... someone that i can count on... dad'll pick me up from the airport... be safe ayah.. :(

MY FRIENDS ARE HORRIBLY FUNNY!!

HEY READERSSS.. this post should be funny that u really need to read it.. lol...


are u ready baby??


oh yyyeeeeaaaahhh!!!!! bring it on sistaaa!!

pada suatu hari.... my very2 lovely lovable best friend....... HILANG!!! lepas g jogging kt luar..


wanna know the rest... sila scroll down... jangan malas!

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and deng....

sila beri perhatian pada Afiq's comment.. sgat LOL!!! 

Yng hilNG tu selamba badak je reply "kami balik suda" hahaha... 
ape la ko ni hairy.. wat org risau!!

ok.. dhaaaaaa... :p until next post..


mmmwwwaaaahhhxxxx

MY SWEET 200TH FOLLOWER

WAHH... akhir nya... genap jgak 200.. 3 bulan aku tnggu.. haha.. ksian.. tu la.. sape soh xpemes.. 

okeh.. my 200th folllower issss... omaigad... junior aku..

:p

jom intai blog die.. sergah je.. serkap ke.. ape tu.. whats the word.. aarhgggh.. g la tngok blog die... eyk.. :p cink..

sila kelik link d bawah ye.... CLICK!!!

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KAHIRO LURSA

YEAH.. THIS GUY UP HERE... HAHA.. 

sila follow dan stalk ye.... 

aku rase die dh ade girlfriend.. oops. sorry girlssss..

 teeheee...

orite.... until next post... mwwaaahhx<3 

insert sikit muka aku kn.. hihiihihihihhihi.. ahakzzz..

CUBAAN MEMASAK HOTDOG YG EXTREME

pada suatu hari, saya dan roomate saya telah berjalan-jalan di tepi muara... membeli hot dog.. (berjelir-jelir lidah i membace)

well, actualy pada suatu hari i ngn roomate i g warta je pon.. beli barang dapor.. and deng... (longhat tganu zahir)lol.. i suddenly ade idea tau nk masak gapo.. nk tau gapo?? 

jeng jeng jeng.... 

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kan atas dh ckp.. beli hotdog.. bli hot dog la.. sosej sosej... dop pahang pahang lagi. 

and deng.. sadengli.. teringat satu article i bace tau.. kt facebook.. nk wat sosej yg berjelir jelir ade spagetti tu ha.. aku xtau la name die kn.. but nmpk interesting... so aku kate kt roomate aku.. jong wat try2 kjap...  die pong, ok jo... bereh boh...

bli la sosej.... 

dh bli sosej n spagetti.... balek.. eh xla.. haha.. 

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ok2.. mule2 kite potong sosej tu half tau.... and deng.. 

kite hamik sebatang due batang (bebanyak pon boyeh) spagetti yg keras lagi tu potong 3... pahang dop? xpahang jap ag ku tnjuk guane.. 

dh ptong 3, cucuk!!!kt sosej.. kt ujung tu... ok2.. macam ni be..

waaa... boleh imagine x cemane kalau dh masak nti??

nk tngok.... *NAK!!!* waiissshh.. bdak bdak nih...

cenggini haaaa

*amazaed* ooohhh..

hahahaha...... until next try baby... :) mwwwaaahhhxhxxxx

MERAH GASAK??

AARGGHH.. tahun ni x semantap tahun lepas.. still.... yg orenggeee jgak menang.. aigoo aigoo aigoo.. xpe2... tahun depan ade lagi.. wekk..... 

this year, our mascot was.......  the ninja!

memang menyala lahhh...  awesome gitu....  memang num 1 di hati ku... haha.. ye la.. klau aku xpuji..sape lagi kn.. hmm..korang ne..

AJK rumah merah memang sgt bagussss... (aku la tu) and yg lain2... yg pnting kne sebut aku dlu.. bru org len.. :p teehee

ce tngok kteorg nye bendera... sgt canteekk woo..

sorry tau xdpt full view.... abg ni golong2 flag tu.. alahai.. nk ckp nk amik gmbar yana segan la plak. hahahahahaha...  isk2.. *gedik* mcm bodoh je aku. 

yana tak join tau perbarisan.. tu utk bdak sem 2 je.. kite dh tua2 ni tngok je la.. cheering kt tepi padang makan hotdog free.. 

giler kau panas kot. 

time lintas hormat.. WOW!! merah paling smart lah.. haha.. jgn MEMPERTIKAIKANN!.. 

SHHHHHHH.......

wanna see??

scroll down a little bit more *British accent*

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oh sorry party people.. handphone i x HD.. 

tngok kteorg nye escort... yg kai gown tu.. cantek kottt. tapi yana xamik pic die hari tu,... kteorg bz siapkan bdak2 utk perbarisan... huhu,.. every year kne ade princessly escort. haha. right before them was the ninja.... ape ntah die wat kt depan tu.. sumpah lawak.. this is one of the "u should have been there' moments.. 

tngok penonton bawah ni sanggup berpanas sbb nk tngok umah merah menang... hampa! 

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aku mana???!

ni haaa.... bawah pokok!!! panasssss.... siyes panas... cikgu yana xleh panas2 nih... nyah ni nk jage muke susah skit.... 

haha,, k la...... nti2 update lagiiii... i know i know... susah dh nk update blog skrang .. busyyyy.... 

exam dh dekat.. cikgu yana kene dpt pointer baguih naaa..... nk bwak balek sarawak.. 

ok.. dhaaaaa.. mwaaaahhhxxx.. :) teehee

WHAT? YANA IN PANGKOR??

WUISSSHHH.... the Yana Aqilah was actually spotted in Pangkor 2 weeks ago.. damn!! this girl is really something... <nyampah> *aku bajet retis la kunun..  padahal pergi camping sponsored by the institute.. haha.. lau nk pergi suke2 tu, tunggu lame lagi la kot... duit bai duit..
sem ni punye allowances pon sudah mau abis ooo.....wuuwuuu.... frust punye pasal.. makang2 je koje...

sumpah gedik.

kelas aku antara 3 yg last.. tesl 10, dak  pra and math.. bez ooo.... nk tngok gmbar tak?? nak la nak la..
;-p

first day sampai2 je, trus bekayak.. damn.. dh la aku xpndai swim kn.. even pakai B.A pon aku terapong je.. xgerak2... lol..  maluuu.. sumpah malu weii.. tau tak, fasi yg in charge of the kayaking tu, buli aku.. waaaaaa... (crying hentak2 kaki kt lantai) ye la.. aku ni xpandai sgt bnde ni kn.. die soh kite gostan tau,.. naseb bek aku kayak ngn Bell. aku lerrr yg jd anchor.. kuat gitu.. kahkah.
dh di soh gostan..

"awak nk pegi mane???" fasi tu jerit.. sebab nye kayak aku ngn Bell x gostan pon.. haha.. makin menjauh dari group tuh..
"awak xpandai bagi arahan ngn org depan kn? sila terjun!" aku dngn lurus nya pon terjon la.... ingatkan nk mntak save. haha.. save ape nyeee... die soh aku naik balik kayak tu... from the water! susAH kot!!

naik2 je, air dh setengah penuh lam kayak... sian Bell.. huhu.. ye la.. xpndai kn.. wuuwwuu
tu ok lagi kot.  kawan aku tu emi(Zul) macam titanic.. sinking you know.. siap peluk lagi dgn heroin dia.. best la kunun.. what nonsense is this!!!! siyes lawak. tapi xleh gelak.. takot kene soh terjun dlm air lagi..

eh.. readers readers ku syg.. sorry la.. xde gambar kite kayak.. *xpe eyh* wuwuu... nk tau cam rupe gaye aku time tu?? aku pakai spec kot! well, hari panas kn.. kayak punye kayak.... spec jatuh lam air hilang xnmpak2 dh.... gone forever.. missing in action.. DAMN!

pah tu.. abis bekayak, mcm active je main air,. tup tup mlm nangis sakit lengan.. siyes xleh gerak.. sakit sesangat... i have to depa my lengan mcm robot sepanjang mlm.. even tido pon statik... gerak sikit je sakit.... esok dh la kne hiking plop.. huhuhu.. jaoh kot! whatever it was.. it was still awesome...

sgt cantik....background itu ye..
all i can say is that, Pangkor is the prettiest scene i've ever scene so far..

nak lagiiii nak lagiiiii... next time ye... letih la..

BILA TEXT SALAH ORG, SUPER MALU!

I've been texting these two guys Nick and Firdaus (bukan nama sebenar :p) teehee.. haha.. nothing serious.. we're friends.. bile text ngn Daus, Nick xde plak text aku.. bile text ngn Nick, Daus plak yang hilang.. haisyyhh.. aku mcm ni , i dont like texting people first cause i feel stupid.. maybe just me.. idk.. so i let them text me first.. my motto is plain n simple.. or philosophy or whatever. if u really wanna talk to me, u'll text me..haha.. perangai ape ntah.  tu pasal la korang kate aku sombong.. Nick, if u're reading this.. hehe.. saye x sombong ok..

hmm... so, last week, aku restore phone aku kt android shop #TheMines tuh..  xpasal2 bayar satus stengah! and damn... bnyak num yg hilang.. so guys, kalau aku xde text tu, i lost ur num.. ok.. yg ade lam phone just yg lekat kt SIM and syncronized kt facebook. thats it.. so, hari tu, 2 or 3 days before B.I.G. the one i thought Daus who was actually Nick texted me and mati2 aku ingat Daus.. argghh... we dont use pet names tau.. tu la pasal.. awak saye awak saye.. boom.. slah org.. 

he texted me and he said "ape yg sombong sgt ni awk?" haha

me?? sombong???

its coz lame xtext kn... and i expect u to text me first.. 

hamboiii.. 

text punye text, i still didnt know that he was actually Nick.. DAMN!!

he even sent me a picture of himself.. bodoh ny aku...

die kate ni kembar die.. pesal mcm muke Nick??? memang Nick ponnnn..haha.. asal aku leh caye tu Daus..

dont judge me!

hensem dop.. hehehe.. sori beeeee.. me dop tau..

td aku text die dulu sbb ingat nk ajak si Daus ni tngok movie baru tu.. MIRROR MIRROR.... 

kalau ajak Nick pon xde msalah.. its just that, i thought Nick jaoh skit... so... sorry tau.. i'll make it up to u ok.. hihi

then.... tetibe die tanye sal farah.. and plan nk g Janda Baik.. aek.. sejak bile mamat ni knal farah.. setau aku, Daus just kenal Waan, Yuy and Piqah!! coz aku bwak dyorg kuar date ngn aku sesame.. hahaahahahhaa.. n its not even a date when u're with 3 of ur besties out to meet a guy for the first time.. its a FAIL!!

hentam punye hentam kt phone, rupenye kiteorg tngah text org yg same... DaUS langsung excluded from the story... hahahahahahahha...xde kaitan pon ngn die.

all these times aku texted Nick rupenyyyyeeee.. 

maluuuu!!

aku siap interrogate babe kot.. haha.. sorry babe.. serious.. its my fault coz slah save number.. Shit. 

moral of the story... just shut up.. haha,... never ever text org dulu tau.. for me la.. 

 ok for the 100000th time.. im sorry Nick... 

teehee...